Musing No. 4: Regenerate

Begin. Create. Release.

There's this cycle in life. All around me. Happening. Constant. It's also taking place in my personal world. And within my being.

At the edge of each stage (when beginning moves into creating, creating into releasing, or releasing back into beginning again), my confidence and clarity can really waver. Am I really here? Is it time? How do I?

For me, this is especially true when it's time to release. Fears and uncertainties bubble up, discouraging me from letting go. I stay in the liminal space and start to ruminate, stagnate.

At these times, I need signs. But, to see the signs that are meant for me, I have to slow down. Do just enough of the preparation for change, and then offset the doing with being. Time to observe. The signs will come. They always do. I don't notice, interpret, or understand them well when I remain caught up in action.

Yesterday, I was encouraged to get busy, write things in my calendar, essentially distract myself from the discomfort of what is going on around me - of being in this transition. I witness this everywhere. So much doing, doing, doing. It seems a common response to the unease that can come with transformation and change.

If I truly trust in the ongoing process of regeneration, maybe the fears can dissipate more easily and fully. Instead of occupying myself in order to avoid, I can recognize the stage I'm in (for now it's release again), and open to the signs that will show me the way to a new beginning.

And so it is.