Musing No. 6: Non-effort

I let go of what doesn't serve me.

In this morning's meditation, I let go of what isn't serving me. I imagined giving it all over to goddess Kali. Kali's name means "time" in Sanskrit, reflecting how she symbolizes the cyclical nature of life - and the power of time to change all things.

As I let each thing go, another presented itself. Layers of thoughts, emotions, and beliefs I wasn't even totally aware I was holding. My heart got a bit lighter, less burdened. It wasn't "hard work". It was simple. Get still. Repeat the mantra. And let it happen to me, for me.

I tend to think that change takes commitment and time. Sometimes this is true. It can also happen from getting out of the way. Asking. Letting. Relinquishing.

I gave my anger, frustrations, fears, insecurities, and the ways in which I'm living small and from a place of lack, over to Kali. And they subsided some. No effort.

This leads me to wonder. What if I commit to doing this? Make it a practice. What if I apply this kind of asking, letting, and relinquishing to other areas of my life and being?

The mindset I acquired is WORK HARD. Maybe that's a lie. Maybe it's more let go, LET go, LET GO. Trust.

From this place of non-efforting and trust, I feel more peaceful. Even that is enough. A life of peace. Contentment.

Whatever is happening around me, doesn't have to be happening within me.

And so it is.